Struggling Well With Life

by Mark Hoffman

November 2009

chaos

Posted on November 4, 2009 at 7:30am.

Listened to brother James speak to group of us men this morning about moving into the chaos of life. Jesus moved into it with passion and intensity. There is life behind this challenge for me - it rings true. There is something in me that is wired for this movement, but at the same time there is something in me that is hesitant, unsure, and downright fearful. I know that there is refinement in the fire, been there, done that. But, honestly, I would like a smooth, peaceful place to dwell for a bit, and I realized today, that lately, I have surrendered myself to this aim. There is no time to just sit on the sideline for a while, I have a wife who deserves more from me, two daughters, now women, who need more from me than that. I am going back in. Pray for me.

new work

Posted on November 2, 2009 at 2:48pm.

God is doing some new work in me, and I am unable to land the words to adequately articulate what is going on beneath the surface. I woke up Sunday morning greeted by the same old stuff that I have struggled with my whole life, and in even greater proportion than I have had for some time. And rather than the usual heaviness of guilt, and beating myself up for not measuring up, I prayed, and moved into my day leaving it in confession. This may sound like “the obvious”, but for me, this is a new work of God. 40 plus years of being a Christian, and I am still unpacking the simplicity of the Gospel. One line in worship has stuck with me over the last day “Apart from His great mercy, I would be forever lost”. So true. So thankful for a new understanding of an old sure truth.

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