Struggling Well With Life

Listened to brother James speak to group of us men this morning about moving into the chaos of life. Jesus moved into it with passion and intensity. There is life behind this challenge for me - it rings true. There is something in me that is wired for this movement, but at the same time there is something in me that is hesitant, unsure, and downright fearful. I know that there is refinement in the fire, been there, done that. But, honestly, I would like a smooth, peaceful place to dwell for a bit, and I realized today, that lately, I have surrendered myself to this aim. There is no time to just sit on the sideline for a while, I have a wife who deserves more from me, two daughters, now women, who need more from me than that. I am going back in. Pray for me.