Struggling Well With Life

I watch “24” and there are terms on there that seem to occur frequently, like “schematics” and “going dark” - I don’t know why I search for, and then smile, when I hear those terms, and others, but I do. Anyway, I feel like I have “gone dark” on this blog deal. This month has been one of the fullest months that I have had in a while. Good, but jam packed. It has also been a real tough one as God is making me look at stuff in me that He still wants to redeem. I have been praying for a new work in me, and I should have known that after all of these years of walking with God, that it would come at a cost. It is real interesting that you can mature, and experience deep movements of the Spirit in your life in some areas, and in others feel like a child taking baby steps. I am learning to trust in new ways, I am discovering waters that I have avoided intentionally, but am compelled to enter. I am in the shallow end, but I’m in. Scared, hopeful, unsure, and dependent.