Struggling Well With Life

It has been so long since I have touched this page, it’s tough to know where to start.  Here’s the deal - it’s not that I have not been “struggling” and have nothing to write - but quite the opposite.  Life is odd: On one hand I am doing pretty well, and on the other hand I am being raked over the coals inside.  I am trying to determine if this is the Holy Spirit trying to move me to a deeper place, or just more self absorption and introspection that drives one crazy.  You would think that after walking with God for decades that this would be a bit simpler to determine - not so much for me.  Praying for clarity.