Struggling Well With Life

Is this really the place to be boldly honest?  A website?  It’s tough to be open - especially when you are not really sure who it is you are being honest with.  How many times have you had what you said misinterpreted, or held out as the sum part of who you are?  Though I am no longer held captive to what people think of me, I would be a liar to say it has absolutely no merit.  All that said, I was waiting for the tides to turn a bit before I would enter another thought here.  The tides have turned, but not for the better.  The truth about my heart today - is that I am mad, not crazy mad, though I wonder how far that really is, but just plain old angry mad.  I am mad about a lot.  Mad, mad about what is, and what is not - in my life, in the lives of others, and in the life of our church.  On any one day there are always things that unnerve us, but today I find myself unnerved on several fronts, on every front.  It’s a good thing that I am alone in my part of the office today.  I would pity anyone who would have to work with me.  I am keeping my head down, and avoiding eye contact.  I have to make it through a few more projects, a few more hours and then hopefully a meal with friends, and an evening with someone who has been with me since the 70"s (James Taylor) will nudge me from this funk that I am in.