Struggling Well With Life

Reading in Joshua today, and desperately begging God for “something”. So much going on in both ministry and family, a full plate no matter how intentional the plan to manage. Been away for a week, and spent a great amount of time driving, and usually that means alone time, as my three women sleep the miles away. And as I spent a ton of time alone, I had opportunity to look at the inside. Not too pretty. I am a middle aged man, with a middle aged heart, and lately feel like I have lost heart a bit. Just working like mad to get in front of everything only to realize I am further behind. So this morning, overcome with my stuff, and deeply burdened for some friends. I dragged myself out to the den with a pot of coffee and begged God for a word. I read today that Caleb was a man who was halfheartedly committed to God. Wholehearted - a great word, used 3x in this chapter about Caleb. He was wholehearted at 40, and wholehearted at 85. I am both challenged, and encouraged by this life, this word. I God, I want to be wholehearted, all in, today. I want to go the distance, and be a man of 85 who loves you with all my heart, all my soul, and all my strength. I thank God for Scriptures, and their power through the Holy Spirit to realign.