Posted on June 28, 2010 at 10:50am.
The well keeps depleting. I am pushing toward some time outside of Charlotte. I have been away a lot this year, and even recently, at several great conferences/retreats, but nothing quite fills me like being unplugged from responsibilities. And there is something supernatural about the beach for me. I am pushing, working hard to get to that place. So much of the past few months has been about “quick fixes”, time here, and time there to refill the well inside me. It seems like I have just gotten enough to make it through the next hurdle - but there is no depth to draw from. Looking forward to deeper filling as my soul finds rest next month!
Posted on June 14, 2010 at 9:07am.
I ran this past weekend with my Saturday running buddy of some 15 plus years. Saturday was a big day for the both of us. Brian was giving his daughter away in marriage, and I was about to witness my first daughter graduate from high school. Two old guys hobbling through a few miles on a hot humid day commenting on the obvious - how fast time passes. Our family has always been a half a step behind Brian’s, and it is both exciting and heart stopping to see what the future holds. It was a heavy, but good day. Brian waxed eloquently as he commented that “I was closing a chapter in my family history, he was closing a volume”. Later that day, I watched over the bride’s shoulder as her dad experienced that volume close.
Posted on June 7, 2010 at 8:02am.
Sometimes it takes others misfortune to breath perspective into our lives. Lately, I have been wrestling with a lot internally - and then last Wednesday I received a phone call that put my woes in perspective. One of our families from church lost their husband/father. He celebrated his 50th birthday on Monday, and was gone on Wednesday. His life is perfect now. But the lives of so many who loved him have been changed forever. I pray today that this dear family would know the presence of Christ in an undeniable way. It makes me look at what I am dealing with - and says “get a grip!”. Life is short - let’s try and love well today.
Posted on June 2, 2010 at 1:50pm.
Is this really the place to be boldly honest? A website? It’s tough to be open - especially when you are not really sure who it is you are being honest with. How many times have you had what you said misinterpreted, or held out as the sum part of who you are? Though I am no longer held captive to what people think of me, I would be a liar to say it has absolutely no merit. All that said, I was waiting for the tides to turn a bit before I would enter another thought here. The tides have turned, but not for the better. The truth about my heart today - is that I am mad, not crazy mad, though I wonder how far that really is, but just plain old angry mad. I am mad about a lot. Mad, mad about what is, and what is not - in my life, in the lives of others, and in the life of our church. On any one day there are always things that unnerve us, but today I find myself unnerved on several fronts, on every front. It’s a good thing that I am alone in my part of the office today. I would pity anyone who would have to work with me. I am keeping my head down, and avoiding eye contact. I have to make it through a few more projects, a few more hours and then hopefully a meal with friends, and an evening with someone who has been with me since the 70"s (James Taylor) will nudge me from this funk that I am in.
Posted on May 24, 2010 at 1:31pm.
It’s mid-afternoon, and I am hitting a wall. I need to get a coffee fix. Stayed up and watched “Lost” for 5 straight hours last night. I snuck into the bedroom after midnight, and thought for sure I would be out before my head hit the pillow. Not so! I was awake all night. Really - all night. Prayed for every one the Lord brought to mind, and then still had hours to just think. What is a night like that all about? Is God trying to get my attention, speak to me? Or is it just an odd rhythm now for an old man. Not really sure. There are more and more things and events that just leave me puzzled.
